Jayapataka Swami: I don’t know what you are considering as your spiritual desire. We know that Kṛṣṇa consciousness is a gradual process. So one may desire something spiritual, that may take some time. And someone may desire something which is not purely spiritual and Kṛṣṇa, He wants to see that fulfilling that desire will not destroy you. So it is whether you are ready to receive it.  It seems a more personal question, you can write to me.
Śrīdhāma Māyāpur, India