Some people say I don’t feel pain. My body is overwhelmed with pain. Srila Prabhupada said that sometimes the spiritual master suffers, carrying reactions of the disciples through dreams – sometimes, in other ways. I’ve had horrible dreams on occasions and sometimes, I feel physical pain. Remember how we are not the body. Through the body and the senses, we experience physical pleasure. Through the body and senses, we experience material suffering. Youth is more enjoyable. Disease and old age have more suffering. In spite of great physical suffering, I remember pastimes with Srila Prabhupada, pastimes of our Lord Gauranga and His associates, and the pastimes of the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Krsna. There is a sublime experience. Which makes all the suffering seem insignificant. It’s difficult to describe. This suffering makes it difficult to fulfill all the instructions of Srila Prabhupada.
If the disciples are negligent in their chanting and following of regulative principles, then I certainly have to suffer more. So I would like to thank all the disciples who are strictly following. Certainly, I am grateful to them. If you can help me make more devotees, I’ll be very appreciative. This will help you become more serious in your Krsna Consciousness for which I will very grateful. I want all the devotees to go back to Krsna at the end of this life and experience bliss during this lifetime.
Your well wisher always,